KAIZEN FOR LIFE

Grief is so strange. One minute I’m fine and the next I’m balling my eyes out because I can’t hug someone who’s not here anymore. My dog died almost a month ago now and most of the time I’m fine, I’m distracted and busy.

However, as soon as I look at a picture of her, see something that reminds me of her, think about her – I break down. I miss her with every ounce of my being.

Relationships with animals are so different since it’s pretty much purely physical, you have no way of communicating with them other than facial expressions and body language. My dog was always there. She was the one I turned to when didn’t have or didn’t want anyone else, she never let me down. She was only the only person I would allow physical affection from for a long time. And I would give anything to have that back.

Processing loss is so odd. How do I do it? How do I know if I’m working through my emotions or letting them consume me? How do I know if I’m avoiding thinking about her or if I’m genuinely distracted and busy?

I’m still figuring it out.

At the moment, I just want to hug and hold her and never let go.